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Honestly, this is the first time I felt i've totally screwed up my entire exams. I mean, literally, the entire exam. The worst thing that could ever happen was to fall sick during the exam period, where my immune system totally collapsed. It just felt like a nightmare to me for the past few weeks.

Also, I guess the complacency that sets within me plays a part too. Oh well, there's always a first time. I'm mentally prepared to re-take the exams though, taking a light-hearted kinda feel towards it now. =)

Ha. Anyway, during the exams period, something strange happened which i thought was quite funny recollecting back. There was this one time, after taking the medicine, I continued to mug till the wee hours of the night in my bedroom. Suddenly, I was drawn towards some rattling noise in the living room which was in total darkness. And I saw this tin can rolling by itself on the floor. Usually, the windows in the living room would be closed. Thus, the possibility that the movement was triggered by the wind blow was eliminated. So, what caused the tin can to roll on the floor? Nevertheless, at that point of time, I guess i was too "intoxicated" by public law and the medicine, I just faced towards the living room and uttered, "Wish me luck for my exam tmr" sub-consciously and I continued mugging. I wasn't thinking too much either. ha. (come to think of it, i'm quite taken aback by my own reaction)

A few days later, I kinda recollected back this incident, which I thought was a dream and told my parents. Then, my mum got freaked out la. ha... coz prior to this, my sister-in-law kinda shared with us her encounter with my "uncle", who had passed away eons ago, within our own very house. In that encounter, my "uncle" was sitting beside her on the sofa and chatting with her. And, coinidentally, my sister-in-law was on medication (like me) at that time.

Ha. so, perhaps, medicine does make people lose their senses at times, especially when it's late at night.

oblivion

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11:20 PM;;

*pat pat*

Woah, din realise that I've been MIA for so looooong. haha...

My first year is officially coming to an end soon on 2nd June! That's when my last paper will be, and I can visualise myself jumping around and singing "Joy to the WORLD"! haha... But, it just seems quite out of reach though. I guess I've really lost touch with exams. So, feeling jittering here an there. And yeah, absolutely minus 0 confidence for the exams. So, going to the temple over at bugis to pray on tuesday (1 day right before exam starts). I guess that's what people called hugging buddha's foot at the eleventh hour (lin shi bao fou jiao). haha...

Earlier this month, I guess i was quite caught up with this exam fever that I dreamt that 3 of my subject's chapters were GODs! It's akin to visualising Maths, Science and English as 3 Gods respectively. haha... yeah, silly indeed. In my dream, these 3 Gods were like performing some supernatural powers on me. And I vivdly recalled that one of the 3 Gods was hurling a green ball of fire onto my left shoulder, leaving me badly injured! haha... then when I woke up, I was having having a real bad headache. But I was laughing at my stupid dream. So, from that day onwards, those 3 chapters were named the 3 Gods. Haha... This is what law does to u. It just makes u insane at times... ha

Can't wait for my holidays to start though it will only last for less than a month? haha... just gonna make full use of it so kinda made plans for it. Going Malaysia and perhaps Hong Kong? Waiting patiently... urgh

oblivion

her
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10:40 PM;;

Happy New Year!!! =)

Woah, never did I realise that I've been MIA for such a long period of time. Ha.
Oh well, for the past couple of months, everything had seemed prettaye surreal to me to the extent that I had literally given up on myself. It just felt like I've sunk to a bottomless pit again, where I would want to segregate myself from the crowd and hide in my own world. I guess when too many problems are left unsolved, it'll just snowball to the extent that it'll prove too much for one to handle. And that's when u'll just snap and break down. But, thankfully, a couple of epsiodes had helped me to regain my "sanity" which drove away the pessimism lingering within me. Also, little did I know that ur email has given me the drive to perservere on. And I can see the road laid before me once again =)

Anyway, enough of all these non-sensical stupidity of mine, ha. The first day of new year made me realise the importance of peace and tranquility. It is a usual practice for my family to have a reunion dinner with the paternal side on the first day of new year, at my house. It has always proved to be a BIG headache for me especially after I've bought a drum-set! Not surprisingly, my room was instantly packed with little nephews and nieces who were intrigued by my drum-set and couldn't resist the temptation to try it. It was totally mayhem when six kids tried to beat the drum simultaneously for several minutes (mind you, one minute is enough to shorten ur life-span by at least half!) ha... Thus, I was trapped in my little confined room with 6 kids, each vying to try on the drum, for half-an-hour, with no-one coming to my rescue "=.= It was like a total nightmare for me la! Thankfully, the incessant beatings of the drum did not send the police visiting my house. Headache headache. But, I honestly think that they can form a girl band (coz the kids are all girls "=.=) ha... and I'll just be their manager! =)

Haiz... The day was spent trying to pacify the kids and persuading them to stay away from my beloved drum-set. *heartache arh!* Ha... Anyway, other than that, it was pretty smooth-sailing. Will post the picture up soon!

oblivion

her
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1:24 AM;;

When given time for myself, I would always lapse into deep thoughts. And this is something which I honestly hate. For the past one month, I would often find myself woken up in tears and fear, which would ruin my day.

What was I crying for?
What was I fearful of?

There's no answer to it...

I guess that's the reason why I would bury myself amongst the books and start mugging. It just takes my mind off things which I do not want to know, do not want to understand. And, when I'm dead beat, my sleep will be pleasant. Sounds pretty unhealthy though =) I guess I just need a break from everything.

So, I'll be going on a hiatus.

For how long, I honestly don't know the answer :)

oblivion

her
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1:18 PM;;

此时此刻，我希望心中能够开出一朵灿烂的花朵

oblivion

her
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BEAUTY
10:35 PM;;

For the past few months, everything seems so surreal to me.
It felt as if I've unknowingly embarked on a journey of oblivion
Afraid of what awaits for me at the end of this journey
Afraid of advancing forward
For every step taken denotes an ominous sign...

I guess I'm just afraid of falling into the bottomless pit again

Sometimes, I just feel that I've totally fucked up my whole life...

oblivion

her
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BEAUTY
10:38 PM;;

At the spur of the moment, I have a sudden urge

To abandon everything that I have at hand

And devote all my time to music

This sounds crazy, absolutely crazy

I guess

It's time to hit the bed...

Hopefully, when the sunlight glides through my windows

This crazy thought would have vanished along with the night...

oblivion

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
11:24 PM;;