someone else's qn is still ringing in my mind... though it was juz a very simple qn, but it really did bring back lots of memories - be it good or bad.. "Are u a simple girl?" i really wish i could become one again... but on second thought, i know it is impossible...
the days when i was really a simple gal.. in my world, there was only laughters and to bring smile onto everyone's face... nothing else... i thought this could be eternal... but i realised i was wrong... 1998- the year i'll never forget; the year that i was nearly driven to suicide... the year when my world was in complete darkness, i simply could not see a ray of light... no one was there to lend a helping hand, no one to lead me out of darkness... the year in which, i would always hide at one corner, and sobbing quietly... and that was also the year i knew i can no longer rely on ppl...
when i reached secondary school, i decided to forget all the unpleasant past and to start afresh.. and i succeeded... once again, i became a simple gal... but somehow, heaven was jealous of it, and took away all my happiness... this time round, i was given even more problems to solve... once again, i was being sucked back into the world that i've deserted long ago... it was also then i realize that i could no loner become a simple gal, it's simply impossible...
in the real world, it's juz like a masquerade... many people wear a mask to hide their hideous faces.... trying to mask their true colours... and many succeeded... they try to reap their interests at all expenses, even if it means betraying their friends or humiliating someone... they dun care... in their world, there's only themselves... ren bu wei ji, tian zhu di mie... i still hold on to a ray of hope that this proverb isn't true... i'm still waiting for someone to prove me wrong... still waiting...
