something unexpected happened yesterday... well... as usual, i boarded the bus at the bukit panjang plaza after bidding goodbye to li chween and her gang... then, when i looked into the bus...i saw a very familiar face... then that person smiled at me... on second look, i realised it was my ex-ex-ex idol! haha.. so many ex-... but she looked really haggard and exhausted... then... after chatting with her for a while... she asked if i was free... and told me that her church was hosting an event, in which the members of the church had to bring a friend along... then it juz happened that she did not manage to find any friend to go along with her... and it juz happened that before the start of the event, she saw me... so asked me along... she was there "pleading" me to go... as usual, being a kind-hearted soul (*puke* haha) i reluctantly agreed... i told my friends about it... they all said that it's really fate and i was fated to go to her church.... hmmm... i don't know...

anyway, as she was the in-charge of the event... i was being left alone to mingle with the ppl... it was kinda freaky... coz everyone had friend/s with them... then it was pretty hard to strike a conversation with them, esp when they're so much more younger than me... then... off we went for dinner... we went to some secluded area in woodlands (dun even know the existence of that place), we had muslim food... and i accidentally ate the green chilly.. as i din dare to spit it out (coz like very rude, and need to have those kind of "high-class" table ettique, haha) i had to chew and swallow it down... it was damn hot!!! i was in tears... haha... then i kept fanning into my mouth... haha... then everyone was like "are u alright?" but the problem was it was so hot that i can't talk! haha.... aiyoh, lose face already... no more high-class table ettique already... haha...

anyway, after dinner, they headed off to CDANS to play bowling... while we were on the bus, she stood beside me... we had a chat... but still feel kinda weird... coz no matter how i try, i still can't regard her as my friend... she's forever a teacher to me... dunnoe why... so i maintained a distance away from her... she told me lots of stuff about herself... she told me something which i thought was very surprising - last sunday, together with George and 2 other boys, they went to Malacca to find a hotel to prepare for the December expedition... it was quite a fruitful trip... and that was not the only time she went overseas with George... the first time was to China... whereby, she and george and other members of the church went to China to teach the students english... well... that really surprised me! haha... she also told me that george has become more sociable... which is true... i kept talking to him the whole nitez... he has really become more friendly and more different from the george i used to know... there's one thing that she always made me realise something - for years, i've been pursuing my dream, my ambition that i totally neglect what i want in my daily life, my lifestyle, my needs... all i know was to turn my dream into reality... that's all! so watever qn she asked regarding myself... i kept saying "i don't know"... which is a very sad case... anyway, she told me that she also wanted to take mass com in university... but for some reasons she didn't in the end... actually i wanted to ask for the reasons... but her tone sounded quite sad and regretful... that's wat restraint myself from asking her... anyway, no use looking back when u know that it'll only make ur life more miserable...

anyway, as i had school the next day... so i had to go back home early.. she wanted to send me to the bus-stop... but i told her to go with the crowd, it's alritez... but then she insisted... and kept apologizing to me coz she was too busy with her stuff... and kept saying that she felt very guilty... i was like there saying, "it's alritez, it's alritez..." then, i dunnoe wat got into my mind.. i started jumping up and down... haha... i guess i was too tired... then in the end, i tapped on her arm and told her that it's alright... and that finally give her a peace of mind... haha... then, i headed off to the mrt station... and she shouted from the back and told me to sms her when i've reached home (as if i'll meet those "pervert uncles" again... which i pray not)... haha... she's so sweet and nice...

so... can this day be wat we always call "fate"? i dunnoe... coz i never keep in contact with her again... then suddenly she appeared before my eyes... and then it juz happened that she needed to find someone to go along with her for the event organized by her church (which is, in fact, she herself...) and it juz happened that on that day.. i've nothing on.... can someone pls tell me if this is all fated??