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the beauty

A arty farty yet nerdy student who loves:

violin =) drums =) music =)
musicals =) stage plays =)
gothic crosses =) books! =)

endless wishes

- Play Station Portable (PSP) =)

- A new violin bow from France =)

- "The Innocent Man" by John Grisham

- New laptop =)

- To form a band =)

- A fish-eyed camera =)

- A polariod camera =)

- New belt =)
upcoming

insert your calendar here, or a to-do list :) completely up to you!



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Arfandi
Arman
Beiru
Cheryl
Huda
Hui Jun
Isabel
Jing Ting
Pei Ling
SAG
Sam
Sheena
Sin may
Sunita
Vivian



and when she speaks

Friday, October 01, 2004

well... today hasn't been a pretty smooth day for me... coz i broke the promise that i made to myself... thanks to cognitive dissonance... haiz... anyway, promises are meant to be broken. That's wat OMG taught me...
it's been a year since this feeling came back to "haunt" me again... it was really terrible... for one moment, i felt the world was spinning around me... the blood surging to my brain... and my heart was crying... real badly... this feeling was so bad that i actually din realise that tears were streaming down my face... non-stop... it's juz a PE.. no big deal... that was wat i told myself for... trying to convince myself that i did the right thing... but... i failed to do so... there was an internal struggle within myself... i really felt terrible... so terrible that i felt like puking and couldn't concentrate on wat i was doing... although, my frenz (thanks guyz... really grateful to u all...) tried to console me... talking senses into me... but nothing could get into me... i tried not to cry, i tried not to reveal the soft side of me... i tried... i've really tried... but i still failed to do so... fortunately, i did the right thing in letting out... coz i felt much more better and relieved... though, till now i still feel quite guilty... at least the pain had disappeared along with the tears...

oblivion

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
9:49 PM;;