seriously, i was lost for words when i asked myself if this course is the one... I don't know. Maybe i've been deluding myself all these while, trying to convince myself that i've made the right choice in choosing this course over the school that everyone desires, the school that holds many sweet memories despite my short stay. Maybe I'm juz afraid of the answer, afraid it is not what i've desired for or i would like to hear. Maybe I should not have mixed up passion with forte. I'm lost. Really lost. Every day, i'm challenging something which is not my forte, something which i used to dread back in the old days... It seemed all like a dream to me. Sometime, i pinched myself to ensure that these are all reality. I've never thought that i would actually make it into this course nor did i expect that i would ever enter this course. Seriously, the thought of entering this course had nv crossed my mind back in the old days. I don't know why i am here. I'm lost. Issit passion that lead me into this course? I dare not say. Well, like what su has said, everything happens for a reason and i believe that. Right now, i'm searching for this reason. That is why whenever people ask me if what i think of this course or why i choose this, i'll be at a lost for words. 'cause i'm searching for the answers too, myself...
Juz the difference in 4 marks is enough to determine my entire fate. 4 pathetic marks changed the path that i take, changed everything. If only... It's all history. This should come to an end. I should let this thought perished into the thin air and never let it haunts me again.
oblivion
