Although this week has been rather hectic and tedious, it's still "un-comparable" to last semester. Last semester was what i called "living in *hell*", with frequent burning of midnight oil and racking of your brain. Thus, this semester is nothing compared to last.
Well, I had my impromtu speech at last! Phew! I felt an instant burden being lifted off. The impromtu speech was ok, considering the fact that i was the last to deliver it(it was really nerve-racking and the wait was killing me.) The topic I got was "Anger is a short period of Madness". I gasped when I got this. My mind instantly black out. I really have no idea what to say for this. Thus, when I moved to the other room, where we prepared our speech and the outline, I kept mumbling "die die" to myself. When i entered the room, I could feel the tension that was surrounding the room. Everyone was busy writing out their outline and preparing the speech. Under such condition, it was pretty hard for one to concentrate on "serious stuff". I couldn't think at all (my brain hasn't been working ever since the day i started school, don't know why). Thus, I let my hands do the work. I was just writing craps without a slighest hint of hesitation nor "brain exercising". In the end, i completely had no idea what i was writing.
My classmates, my fellow "soldiers" left one by one, all prepared to put on a "brave front" and a "fierce fight" for this assessed speech. Not long after, I was left all alone in this room - feeling lost and lonely. Before I could start to prepare my speech, I was being "chased out" of the classroom as students and teacher began swarming in to prepare for the next class. Haiz... There I was standing in the dark and lonely corridor, trying to "reorganize" the thoughts and make the entire speech flow but couldn't. I was like a poor soldier stranded in the dark and lonely alley, trying to be composed and be mentally prepared for the "fight". However, i failed to do so. All the points sort of jumbled up and my brain wasn't working (as usual). It was pretty nerve-racking. Finally, the sound of the "thunderous applause" reached my ears. It was time for the "fight".
All eyes were set on me when I entered the room. Surprisingly, I wasn't feeling nervous at all. Thus, there i was standing in front of the people, who are my dearest classmates and are supportive of me. My emotions were numbed as I began to deliver my speech. Blabber, blabber and more blabber was what I had recollection of. Nothing else. My brain had decided to the the "honour", the "job" to the mouth. All the words that came out were "un-filtered" and "un-processed". Soon, I came to the end and Aisyah said "3.06mins"! I was thrilled with my new record as, for once, I'm not under-timed!!!
Thanks God! It's over! Though the entire procees last for half-an-hour, it seemed eternity to me. Never am I going to go through this "mental torment" again.
oblivion
