I've come to a conclusion that he has been treating me as a fren instead of someone special. I've decided to stop deceiving myself and live in self-delusion. (su, u shld know who i'm referring to...) Ever since the end of the last lesson, I din hear from him anymore. He didn't msg me or chat with me online like we used to every night. I hate to admit that I sort of miss him and I actually took the initiative to msg him but when i receive his msg, I just wished that I had not msg him. Well, though i always advise my frenz to "fight" for their own "opportunities" *happiness* when it happens on me, I'm just lost. I think i'll give up on him though I never know if he was ever interested in me before. So I might as well conclude that he has been treating me as a fren or a sister, as he's a year older than me.
ok, I shall change the topic to a more chirpy one :D. Went on a date with Travis on monday and I got to admit that he's the sweetest guy I've ever known. He remembers every single thing that I've told him and all my likes and dislikes. A very nice guy who's not possessive and willing to wait patiently and quietly. Well, something happened on that day that kinda touch my heart. As a regular patron of the arcade, he went to play a couple of games while i wander around. As I dislike the "noise pollution", I excuse myself to the washroom - which, in fact, was an excuse to get out. Once outside, I hung around at various shops and not realising the amount of time I've spent. So, when I returned back to the arcade to search for him, there was no sight of him. So I msged him that I would be waiting outside the arcade for him. Right after my msg, he called me and the next moment I know, he appeared a few meters before my eyes and wore a frantic and anxious look on his face. When he saw me, he ran to me and told me that he was so worried that something had happened to me in the washroom. He said it in a very serious tone which kinda stunned me. And tld me that he waited outside the washroom for me. I just laughed. Laughter is always the best "concealer" for all sorts of emotions. I was kinda touched as I never realise that he would be so worried for me. So, touched by his gesture and concern for me, I'll be going out with him again next monday, nothing but as a fren. Yup! Hope that he'll choose a decent cafe to dine in :D
oblivion
