Although only 2 days had passed since school started, i can foresee a tough year ahead. I was thoroughly worn out on the first day of school, that i slept like a log when i reached home - from 10pm to 10am the next morning. I was still pondering what triggered that "pig" within me. It was as if someone had cast a sleeping spell upon me and was totally oblivious of it. However, it proves to be an effective remedy for people suffering from insomnia (*pointing towards me* ME!).
I'm seriously having a hard time falling asleep nowadays. When dusk arrives, a series of things, events, would be running through my head and this has made sleeping impossible for me. I would be drooling at the thought of food, thinking of what to eat for lunch and dinner the next day(weird woman, aren't I?) , ways of pulling up my socks, and grades and grades and grades. As dusk sets deeper, i would be overwhelmed by my hunger that triggers an urge within me to indulge myself in a scrumptious meal. Fortunately, my perserverance to maintain this figure (that's the power of vanity! haha) managed to curb this urge and force myself to sleep. I guess the only reason for this sudden urge is tha i have not been eating well and that my "active" brain has burnt out all the calories inside my body. (what an absurd logic i have come up with, haiz...)
Btw, back to something more chirpy. Carrie Underwood has won! I nearly choked upon the revelation of the result and drops of tear was threatening to roll down anytime from the edge of my eyes. I guess I was being too emotional. Haha, what a failure i am manz! I seemed to have absolutely no control of my emotion and allowed it to be "manipulated" by the results. But still, CARRIE HAS WON!!!! I'm elated still! I've been supporting her all the way coz i'm completely blown away by her powerful yet magnificent vocal! I'm just so gonna buy her first single. :D
The next chirpy thing that happened to me is that, after a looooong wait, SR's finally back in school with me! yeah! Although we're in different courses, we still find time to meet up to go home together. Good-bye to loneliness that has been "sticking like a glue" to me for the whole of first year, as i've no one to go home with. Every one is staying at some secluded areas of singapore or at the extreme ends of singapore. Thanks God, loneliness shall not be found in my dictionary *at this moment* (never say never coz u'll never know, haha). However, through SR i saw a reflection of myself. I realised how much i fear of being alone. Having to do everything, deal everything alone is such a dreadful and scary thing for me. The thought of it is enough to freak me out and i seriously have no wish that i'll be reduced to such state at the moment(such situation will be inevitable for me when i've decided to study abroad.). I'm still dependent on others for survival. Haiz, juz hope that by the end of 3 years, I'll be ready on my own to further my studies overseas alone. Good luck to me :D
oblivion
