I share the same sentiment...
I never fail to question myself
what on earth am i doing here?
Why did i choose this path?
Why didn't i heed my parents' advise?
Is this really what i want?
Is this what I've thought of?
Numerous questions, but there's no answer to them...
Why, you may ask...
Becoz i've finally decided to run away from them...
I've accepted one
and it was proven hard to accept
Thus I've decided to run away from them
I would always advise ppl to face up to reality
accept it and move on...
However, when things happen to me
I choose the other way...
This makes me happier
I was once tied down with all these questions
They once became a burden to me
They once made my life more miserable
They once weighed me down
They made me feel like giving up...
For a long period of time
I've been trying to convince myself that
my decision was right
this is where i belong
but i realised
I can no longer deceive myself
This greatly upset me
This was the first major decision that I've ever made in my life
and yet, i screwed it up...
From then on,
I was plunged into the world of darkness
I was mentally and physically worn out
Thankfully, it wasn't long
As I found solace in the world of music
Where it drowns all my sorrows
Where it enables me to express myself freely
Where I find back my true self...
I did not let my sorrow known
For I don't want to be a burden to anyone
I want to be seen as a chirpy, cheerful person
It was indeed a painful experience...
And I painfully accepted this reality
Now, I'm running away from other problems and questions that follow
for i can no longer handle another blow...
Endurance is wat i must possess nw
time will help to solve these problems
and eventually, heal this pain...
oblivion
P.S (I guess that explains for my slack-ness nowadays...)
