Since the start of the brand new semester, or rather a brand new year, I constantly find myself rushing for last minute work. i seriously have no idea wat's going on... I'm juz so sick and tired of it. Full-stop.
I did something which made me felt quite bad abt it on thurs. You muz be thinking what "crime" had the angelic zhixin commmited. I snapped at Aisyah. I almost lost my cool on her.
I've been both mentally and physically exhuasted since the start of year 2. My heavy involvement in school activities has left me in a state, where my brain simply refuses to work. It has been thoroughly worn out. And what happens after this? I juz let the words flow out of my mouth, without going through any filtering. I juz let my emotions take over my sensibility. My facial expressions tell everything. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing.
Su and I agreed that it has really been an eye-opening experience for the both of us. It resulted in a change in us and we are no longer our own self. At least, we have become more matured, haven't we? =)
Anyway, back to something more chirpy. I've received more and more compliments from my violin teacher!! haha, it's the greatest gratification I've ever had so far. haha... In the past, she used to yelp for help whenever I started playing. I gotta agree that it was horrible with all those bad intonation and rhythms. But now, she never fails to compliment me after every piece that I've played. Also, for the first time in my entire life, I can feel that I've been improving with every lesson and I can finally play VIBRATO!!!!(despite the fact that i only practice an hour every week, which is not enough.) Muahahaha, I'm so happy la! I guess i made the right choice in joining the NP strings, if not i guess my love for violin will never be rekindled. I love my violin, and now, I'm considering to further my music upon graduation. haha, so happy!
oblivion
