I don't want to blame something, which has happened, on fate. Blame it on my luck. Blame everything, everyone except myself. I'm responsible for what has happened, I'm the cause of what I am today. No one is to be blamed but myself. I've chosen this path and I knew this would happen. I chose to ignore the advises from my teachers and my parents. Thus, I'm the cause of everything. I'm not being pessimistic nor sadistic, but merely stating the fact. Luck, facts - all these words are created by human beings to run away from reality. They can shift the blame on all these things, which i doubt ever exist, instead on themselves.
What would happen if I've chosen the other path instead?
I would have gained and lost something in return.
But would the gain outweighs the loss...
I don't know.
I'm lost.
oblivion
