Yesterday's performance may not be the best we've ever had, but it was certainly best "party" we had so far. And that I love everyone of them and TIGER BEER! :)
Thanks for everyone's concern, but i guess when it comes to such problem, nobody can help me but myself. There's just this inferior feeling that's lingering inside me, which i doubt i can never get rid of. 
At least for now, I find solace in my most beloved violin which keeps me going... I may not be the best violinst, I may not be able to create the most beautiful melody through it. But, through it, I have the courage to reveal who i really am deep inside...
oblivion