Yihan did a tarot reading for me yesterday with regards to my attachment. The first few cards were amazingly true. There were a few lines which I thought was rather thought provoking - "You're carrying too much burden and they are wearing you down. You feel lost and sometimes, yo're simply not yourself.... and you HATE your current job."
I was taken aback by what he said. I never expect tarot cards to have the ability to read out what I was thinking. I've been trying desperately to conceal all my feelings through the mask that I wear. However, the real me has gradually been replaced in the process. Sometimes, I became confused as to who I really am. What kind of person am I?
As I've mentioned to CH, I don't like to reveal the weak side of me to anyone. I refuse to collapse in front of anyone. I refuse to drop any tears. All along I've been putting up a brave front, assuring everyone that I'm alright and I'm optimistic to everything that's happening around me. I refuse to tell anyone that I felt lost and helpless at times... I do not want anyone to see the pathetic side of me...
All I can say is that I can't be the real angel that I used to be...
oblivion
